// Can you relate? You sit in your towel after a shower because you’re too lazy to get dressed. You and your best friend can say one word, and crack up. You hate when one string of your hoodie is longer than the other. You hate it when people think you like someone when you clearly don’t. You hate it when your favorite song comes on, as you pull into the driveway. You feel like if you turn on the lights, you will be safe from anything. You push those little buttons on the lids of fast-food drinks. You laugh until people get hurt, then stop when you realize it’s serious. You hate it when parents get serious about something funny you tell them. You hate when you tell a guy to shut up and they copy you in a higher voice. You pretend to sleep when your parents come in. You text the person next to you things that you can’t say out loud. You hate when people in front of you walk really slow and you can’t get past them. You’re always tired no matter how much sleep you get. You stop the microwave before it hits 00:00 to avoid hearing the beeps. You use the “sup” head nod. You just did the nod after you read it. You hate when you are mad at someone and they make you laugh. You check the fridge every ten seconds to see if food magically appeared.//

lolwhatsociallife:

It’s crazy how much I can relate to strangers…I love Tumblr. (:

MYBRETHREN. I HAVE FOUND MY BRETHREN.

I totally friggin’ nodded and then freaked the frick out when I read the next line where it accused me of doing the very thing O_O

THIS.

sup head nod akjafhajdfjadf

(Source: pretttycunt)

// Life…………//

Kahapon ng tanghali, biglaan nga ba ang lahat? o sadyang yun ang dapat mangyari. oras na nga ba talaga ni Lola ko? siguro nga tama na yung ilang taon na nahirapan siya sa sakit niya, ilang buwan na hindi na namin siya nakausap, ndi na nakasama sa mga lakad namin dahil nakahiga na lang siya mahina ang katawan. Noon ok ako na nagbabantay sa kanya, kaso kahapon parang ang hirap niyang bitawan, syempre ako yung tao na hindi agad umiiyak pag may namatay na kapamilya kasi hindi ako agad naniniwala sa mga nangyayari naniniwala kasi ako na baka may himala pa if ever. naiyak lang ako ng todo nung nakita ko na kukunin na siya ng mag seservice, ang hirap bitawan ng kamay niya pero kailangan e, yun ang dapat gawin kasi yun ang plano ni Lord para sa amin.

Nung unang may nawala, lolo ko, galing kami sa school pagdating ko nakita ko nagpupump pa yung heart niya kaso yun pala ventilator na lang yun, machine na lang yun at hindi na talaga si tatay yun. sobrang hirap na may mawawala lalo kung kasama mo sila sa paglaki mo, na nanjan sila pag pasko, bagong taon, fiesta at araw-araw. masakit sa loob ko yung mga nangyayari pero kailangang tanggapin kasi yun ang bigay ng tadhana.

After 5 or 6 years, gabi, hindi mo naman aasahan na magkakaroon ng emergency diba? tapos pagdating mo ng ospital hindi mo na aabutan yung tito mo na may buhay pa. hindi ko naman masasabi na super close ako sa tito ko na yun, pero siya na kasi yung tumayo na pangalawang tatay ko dahil nga wala naman lagi dito ang sarili kong ama dahil sa trabaho niya, siya ang taga attend sa graduation ko, at iba talaga yung respect ko sa knya. saludo ako sa kanya! kaya nung nawala siya ng biglaan ang dasal ko sana magkaroon ng himala, paulit ulit kong idinasal yun, kaso walang nangyari e. siguro yun ang plano para sa kanya kaso sobrang ikli naman ng naging buhay niya para maishare sa amin. :(

Ngaun naman si lola ko naman. sa kanya ok na din siguro to para matapos na yung paghihirap ng katawan niya, ang hirap din kasing makita na nagkakaganun siya lalo na at alam namin na malakas siya noon. masakit lang talaga na both parents ng dadi ko ay wala na. hay. sana na lang masaya si nanay kung nasaan siya at kasama na niya si tatay at dadi xander. :)

Ang dami kong tanong sa sarili ko pero kahit anung gawin kong pag iisip wala akong maisip na sagot, bakit kaya? Naguguluhan na ako. :( Kailangan ko ng makakasagot sa mga tanung ko. 

// You know what’s killing me when someone left? Its the memories!//

// how will you know if it’s time to let go?//

Is it when you feel least important? Least appreciated? Or the least, when you feel unattended at all?

The answer is, I DON’T KNOW! I don’t know what to feel. So close yet so far.

Everything was done for us, it is for us to improve some things, yet we are not doing anything about it.

This is a HOPELESS case, I think. The only solution I could think of right now is to let go the feeling and to never let it fill me again and feel so stupid on doing things.

Maybe during summer vacation I will learn how to let go or just accept the fact that it won’t work at all and nothing will happen. :/

// CM no more!//

Naalala niyo yung post ko about that one subject na halos tumanggal ng buong pagkatao ko? (asa akong may nakaalala pa nun) During the exam sabi ng prof may removals daw, parang retake ng exam na mag eexam ka talaga pero pag nareach mo yung 60% cut off kahit ilan pa yung habol mo sa subject automatic pasado ka na. Last day ng exam yung nakaset na removals, 4pm after ng dalawang exam. Syempre lahat kabado tapos umuulan pa, parang sinasabi ng langit na umiyak ka na di ka papasa. haha. o blessing pa nga yata yun, depende kung paano titignan ang mga pangyayari. So ayun nag take ako ng removals umaasa na maipapasa ko yung subject kahit na mejo nawawalan na ko ng pag-asa. God is good all the time, yung type of exam na inaasahan ko hindi yun ang lumabas at mostly yung mga questions ay yung mga naiexam na before or mga nasa guide question na nasa book.

May kaibigan akong nagsabi na kung Para sayo, para sayo talaga. pero kung may magagawa kang paraan para makuha mo yung gusto mo magagawa mo. Hard work nga lang talaga. siguro ito na yung bunga ng mga puyat ko, pagod sa pag susulat, pagttyaga na magbasa ng libro at pag pilit sa sarili na wag munang sumuko hanggang sa huling pagkakataon. Salamat, kasi ngaun makakatulog na ako ng maayos na walang iniisip na babalikan ko pa yung subject na yun next sem.

Yung kasiyahan ko nung nalaman kong pumasa ako ay hindi buo kasi may mga di pinalad pero di natin masasabi na di yun para sa kanila at malay natin na baka sa pangalawang pagkakataon mas mag excel sila. Kailangan lang nating tumingin sa mas maliwanag na bukas kaysa magmukmok sa kung anu ang meron ngaun. God has his own ways on how he will make us all successful, in your right time, you will achieve your goals. Don’t lose hope and always TRUST in Him. :)

(Source: wanderingpork)

// A guy who…..//

• play with your hair
• hug you from the back
• wave and smile at you when he saw you
• make jokes just to make you smile
• choose to stay with you than be with his friends
• can talk about random things with you
• stare at you when you are not looking at him
• watch you when you sleep
• make argument with you but still let you win
• let you know everything he is doing
• make future plans with you

This guy is difficult to find. :/

// I want to be good enough for you. //

In every way possible. I want to be the reason why you wake up smiling. Why you have motivation to do well in life. The one who gives you an extra push when your giving up. I want to be the voice on reasoning when your doing something stupid. I want to be that good girl you want to wife up. Because in your eyes I’m a keeper. I want you to look in my eyes and see that the only place you want to be is in my heart.

(via lolwhatsociallife)